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Date Yourself

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I've talked before about self-care, and what my version of that looks like. Well, my latest one is going on dates. Don't get excited, though. This isn't my way of doing a 'hard launch' (that's what kids call it these days, right?) of a new chappy in my life or anything. I've been taking myself on dates. Well, in reality I've been doing that for years. But actually labelling them as dates has added a certain something to them. I've had few spontaneous days recently where I've booked the cinema or theatre and have gone into full 'treat yourself' mode, like allowing myself to indulge in the odd cocktail and buying myself dinner. I even make a little bit of an effort to feel pretty, because that kind of thing isn't just designed to be for the benefit of other people. Tonight was a date night.

Bug Spray

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I've been trying really hard to change habits, primarily with the aim of looking after myself a little better. I banned myself from having crisps for the whole of April. Those who know me will know what a massive achievement that was for me, given that I am a self-confessed crisps addict. I've tried to go cold turkey before, but have barely lasted a couple of days. Dechox, on the other hand - that's a month without chocolate - I've managed that every year since 2017, easy peasy. But a crisps ban? It seemed impossible. But I did it, and I'm so proud of myself. Even now, when I'm allowed to have them again, I've significantly reduced how many I consume, which is a huge shift from the way I used to binge before. I'm even considering more regular bans, just so I don't feel tempted to fall back into the old routines.

The Universe and Its Tricks

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I think I've finally figured it out. Why I like to spend so much time indoors, so much time on my own. When I'm inside, or in my own space, I have so much more control over what happens. Whereas, when I'm outside, I'm nothing but an easy target for the universe and its cruel tricks. What's more, out there, I'm more vulnerable to the opinions and judgement of other people. I'm more exposed to potential embarrassment and that is what I find so difficult to handle. To me, embarrassment is one of the worst feelings in the world. Hell, even when I tripped over and literally broke a bone, I was still more worried about how embarrassing the fall was and how all those people in the line of traffic must have been laughing at me.

The Art of Self-Reflection

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One phenomenon of human life that always fascinates me is the ability to recognise how far we've come, even when we're oblivious to it at the time. Flipping through old photographs, for example. We might have thought that was a really cool hair cut or a very snazzy  outfit at the time, but looking back... maybe not the best choice. And yet, even in those awkward phases, we can see hints of who we were becoming - the version of ourselves who, looking back now, can laugh at how far we've come. Many times, people talk about their 'before' pictures at the start of a weight loss journey, which, in hindsight, might actually be their 'after' now. (Yes, I’ve been guilty of that one too.)